Gooooooooooooo Morning San Diego!

Got a wakeup call at 330am from Carrie letting me know that Kasey had gone into surgery and was alittle nervous.  I stayed awake until I received the text from Kas that said she was out and dopey!  The DNC procedure is fortunately done while you're under and not very comfortable afterwards.  It feels like someone took their hand and scraped the inside of your entire lower torso.  Wonderful, huh?

I have found another webside that I am in love with.  It has EVERYTHING you can imagine and some things that are pretty innovative, creative and fuckin' useful.

MILESTONE:  I just cussed on my blog!  

http://www.dailygrommet.com/products/de-nada-design-handmade-peruvian-knits/?utm_source=CC&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=19700101

It's called Daily Grommet and in particular is for angora spiral scarves and cowls from Peruvia.  You must see!!!

itashi photos

itashiphotos@gmail.com

go to itashi photos to view photos and email to order!

psssst !!

Spread the word.

lmao

Night Night!

Sweet Dreams!

Must be a busy day tomorrow.  We have a lot to catch up on.

Lowe's and pick out dining room color a little lighter grey than kitchen back splash.

I know there's something else but I can't remember right now.

Laundry's done.

Corn bread stuffing cooking AGAIN.

I will remember in my twilight!

Must must clean out emails IMMEDIATELY.

Here's some things I found:

http://www.totallybamboo.com/index.cfm?CFID=1172254&CFTOKEN=49670768  

Beautiful bamboo trays, plates, cutting boards, and more! Oh My!

Started out being a real lazy day and then I decided we should do laundry and change the sheets.  So then I vacuumed and steam mop our bedroom.

Burst of ambition to clean is OVER!

And guess what I found?????

Fourteen Chocolate Diamonds and 14K White Gold Ring with Black Rhodium Accents

Wait, I'm breathing too fast.............

I think I like all this puttsing around the house that I've been doing for the past year and a half.  

The domestic life has been a very nice change.

I like the pace my head is in.

What a lazy freakin' day!  Jamie had a slight hangover so we slept in pretty late.  Him on the couch and me snuggled on my new puffy mattress cover.  Just like a cloud.

Found an awesome skincare company that's completely natural.  Amazing story.  Let's see if I can link to it. 

tataharper.com

Yeah, I did it!

Jamie's Birthday Today!  He was so happy to see all the wishes on Facebook.  Wishes from all those people that never sent him a card on his birthday but he remembered all of them all these years.  High five to Facebook!

We went to Buca's and we were in heaven.  Kitchen table and saw Mike, a manager there.  We've known him for several years and he's always so polite whenever we see him.


We split a small mozzarella garlic bread and a small green apple gorgonzola salad and then on to the main entree.  A large Chicken Marsala with mushrooms to share and even had enough to bring some home. 

Then came dessert!   OMG!  The waiters brought a candelabra and started sing to Jamie.  He was so cute and embarrassed.  A large slice of thick brownie topped with ice cream AND whipped cream.  Then the Chef sent over three large pumpkin cannolis.  Beautiful.

Now he's bundled up on the patio enjoying a cigar and a large glass of something I bought him last Christmas.  Whatever it is it's 130 proof.  Isn't that like gasoline?  Or just taste like gasoline?

Happy Tummy and the boys enjoyed all the food.

There were a couple of "smiley" things that happened today.  


Jamie received a box of peanut butter cookies from Mom for his birthday and she called after her turkey dinner at Miki's.  While we were talking her house phone rang.  Mom's cell was put on the counter while she answered her phone.  I knew immediately that it was her sister who she just left (Miki's mom).

Well long story short.

She forgot about me on the cell phone.  For at least 5-7 minutes, I heard her talking japanese to her sister.  A mile a minute.  LOL

Eventually she returned and said hello and then hung up!
What?
I called her back and she laughed and started telling me what  my Aunt Emy had called about.  I had her on speaker and after a couple minutes she started talking fluent japanese to me!


 What? 


I started laughing and then started trying to interrupt her.  "No, I didn't, " is all she could say.  I was laughing so hard I cried.

Don called and sounded really good.  When he's feeling good, he is so fun to talk to .  It was so nice to hear.

I am so happy but cautious happy.

Speaking of something nice to hear, Kasey's ringtone on my phone is of a baby laughing.  She called on the way home from work and I smile real big when I hear her ringtone.

I am thankful for so many small moments during my life.

Things to remember to do sometime soon when I have time and all that.

1)  Explain to Cousin Miki my theories on why our mothers are weird.

2)  Write down all the recipes that Mom has given me.  Do I want to handwrite them, type them ??

Let the cooking begin!!!!!

Last Night - Coleslaw 

This Morning:

Fresh green beans with bacon

Gizzards cooked and cooling

Deviled Eggs ready for filling

Cornbread baked and cooling

Tomorrow morning:

Assemble and bake cornbread stuffing

Fill deviled eggs

Make Guacamole

Boil potatoes to be mashed

Assemble sweet potato casserole

Cook ham

Make ham glaze

hmmmmmm did i remember everything?

  

11pm Tuesday

Jamie has a stuffy nose and a runny right eye

He's sicky.

It's yucky outside.  And I think it's going to rain.  But Jamie still took me out for a Dairy Queen Cookies and Cream Blizzard today.  Man after my own heart.  Traffic already sucks in Mission Valley.   Rude drivers, stupid drivers and drivers on their damn cell phone.  I am not embarrassed to say that I do two things that my Mother would smack me for:

1)  Holler at people on their cell phone.  Get their attention and tell them what assholes they are.

2)  Holler at people that drive fast in parking lots.  I've been known to stand in their way to tell them.

I know.  It's stupid but it makes me feel better so that's all I care about.

I am making way too much food for Turkey day.  It's just Jamie, Gary and me but I can't help myself. I must have all these foods on that day.  I obviously have too much time on my hands.

It's just the dishes that I hate afterwards but then that's why I have Jamie.  

Don's calling me tonight at 7pm per his Social Worker.  I can't wait to hear his voice.  And I know he's just as excited as I am right this moment.

Will write more after my call.

I am waiting patiently for his phone call.  Now I'm looking for the time every 5 minutes and it's going so slow so slow so slow.

Talked to my Amykins today (smiling real big right now).  No matter what the topic, I enjoy hearing her voice and I miss her so mucn.  By the way, I'm not just saying it cuz she reads this either.  I'd tell her to her face.  And I will.  The next time I see her.

Promise you that!

He Called!!!!!


And the doctors say his tumors are shrinking and they have him on antibiotics and he has to take them until December 12th and he might just be getting better.


I can't believe it
He told a nurse that he was just upset that they were so quick to say he was dying but she said that all signs pointed to that when he was admitted.  I'm relieved but afraid that he's not out of the woods yet.  But I will sleep much better.


He's calling me on Turkey Day and I'm happy.  

Dinner tonight:

Nothing better than pork curry and rice on a cold November night.

And a new picture of my grandniece, Ava!

Love the boots!!!

Finally the rain has stopped after two days.  I know.  I know. It doesn't rain very much here so when it does, it's crazy.  The East coast is going to be quite an adjustment for me, huh?

Received a letter from Don today.  Five tumors and two doctors think four tumors are shrinking.  Overall he said he's not sure the doctors know what they are talking about.  Sheeeeeesh

Blog showing some of my pictures

http://itashiphotos.blogspot.com/

Monkey sex.
No, that isn't how I threw my back out yesterday.  But it's happened before.

On the bright side:


Meatloaf,
mashed potatoes
and
gravy
is
damn
good
eats.

I am going to be sharing my "blogournaling" soon.  hmmmmmmm, she says!

Why am I so hesitate about sharing these vignettes of ramblings?  hmmmmmm, she says again!

It's all good.

I made Meatloffington today!  Yummo!  I should make homemade macaroni and cheese.  No wait, NO MORE cooking.  Too many leftovers already.  Breathing deeply.

  

Got a letter from Don today dated Nov 11th.  He said he had a 4 phase CT scan on the 12th.  He talked to a Doctor Campbell.  Don requested an appt with Dr. Lewis to discuss the results.  He said he wants to be active in his treatment if it was possible.  He wrote, "One part of me wants to find out the results now and another part of me doesn't want to know.  It's kind of wierd but I don't feel like I'm dying."

And then he said, "I just watched part of the Oprah show with Marie Osmond.  She is really one hell of a woman.  She has gone through alot of pain in her life.  She reminds me of you.  You know you have gone through a hell of alot and I feel like I've lived through some of it with you.  You are an incredible woman."

Tissue, I need tissue.

We have always started our letters to each other with:  Hi Ugly!  Always.

Today, it said Hi Ugly, Not really.  Hi Beautiful!!

More tissue please.

I have always known he loved me.  Never doubted it.  Never will.

Side note:

I am so excited about my new household weapon!!  We bought a Shark Vac then Steam piece of machinery yesterday.  This morning I whipped it out and threw my back out at the same time.  Sheeeeeesh  WTF!  I'm fine and I still like my Sharky.  But Really?

Survivor, Criminal Minds, here I come

I am in love with vinegar.  White vinegar.  Not to eat or drink but for all these other reasons:

http://www.vinegartips.com/Scripts/pageViewSec.asp?id=7

I think I'm beginning to like this blogging business.  Too bad noone can read it yet!  HA!

As much as like to handwrite pretty on paper with the perfect writing utensil, this is a much easier and smoother way of doing a journal.  Still a safe place to dump my feelings because no one can read it.  I think I will ask Amy to read and to keep unless something happens to me.  Jamie will probably want to edit it.  No, wait.  He WILL edit it.  And I think Kasey will criticize it a little too  much for me right now.  Maybe later.  

Wallpaper of the moment:

Love this website:

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=kandeejohnson#g/u  

Kandee Johnson is a makeup artist that is so talented and so damn bubbly that it almost makes me sick.  But she's so cool and very informative.  I really enjoy her blogs about her Glaminars and her kids and her pregnancy.  Her videos on youtube are very informative and she does great Halloween costumes.  She's a nice brightness in my day.

http://www.naimies.com/

Kandee recommendated website for makeup, tools, etc.

Thoughts:

If you feel a tightness around your shoulders, don't be scared.  it's me giving you a hug.

Justin has passed away. I never even considered him dying.  I thought he was doing well with the chemo treatments and that he was progressing.  He was always reporting that he was doing well and he was upbeat and .......   I hope his suffering has stopped.  That there is a better place where worries and sickness aren't always on one's mind.  Where you can walk through the day and have nothing but smiles above your head.  


I will not attend his memorial.  I cannot cry through it, in front of everyone.  I cry everyday as it is.  My day is made up mostly of very sad moments.  I can't add a memorial and also seeing all those people would add to my list of sadness right now.  Justin would understand.

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Toyoji had his first plane ride yesterday and he was a champ from what Kasey said.

He said this is his crazy plane face.  Kasey took him to Denver to see her father for his first plane experience.  How exciting!  Sure wish he could have made it to California.  But soon I will be closer to him, so I am happy.




Thoughts:


It's nice to have companionship and not be alone but you have to work at it.


Other News:


Jamie bought me a Shark Vac n Steam today.  I'm sooooo excited.

We have a beautiful kitchen now.  I will have to look for the "before" pictures but here's what it looks like now.

We are so proud!

Ava Galloway

Two weeks old

Robin called me on Saturday and it warmed my heart.  She has been out of my life for so long that I was sure I would never hear her voice again.  She wants to communicate with Don.  She wants to tell him that she still loves him and some of her best memories where with him.  I cried.

And now he's a grandfather.

To Jamie

'cause if your love was all I had

In this life

Well that would be enough

Until the end of time

So rest your weary heart

And relax your mind

Cause I'm gonna love you

Until the end of time

That would be enough

Until the end of time 

He says everyone around him knows he's dying but he doesn't feel like it.