I think I'm beginning to like this blogging business.  Too bad noone can read it yet!  HA!

As much as like to handwrite pretty on paper with the perfect writing utensil, this is a much easier and smoother way of doing a journal.  Still a safe place to dump my feelings because no one can read it.  I think I will ask Amy to read and to keep unless something happens to me.  Jamie will probably want to edit it.  No, wait.  He WILL edit it.  And I think Kasey will criticize it a little too  much for me right now.  Maybe later.  

Wallpaper of the moment:

Love this website:

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=kandeejohnson#g/u  

Kandee Johnson is a makeup artist that is so talented and so damn bubbly that it almost makes me sick.  But she's so cool and very informative.  I really enjoy her blogs about her Glaminars and her kids and her pregnancy.  Her videos on youtube are very informative and she does great Halloween costumes.  She's a nice brightness in my day.

http://www.naimies.com/

Kandee recommendated website for makeup, tools, etc.

Thoughts:

If you feel a tightness around your shoulders, don't be scared.  it's me giving you a hug.

Justin has passed away. I never even considered him dying.  I thought he was doing well with the chemo treatments and that he was progressing.  He was always reporting that he was doing well and he was upbeat and .......   I hope his suffering has stopped.  That there is a better place where worries and sickness aren't always on one's mind.  Where you can walk through the day and have nothing but smiles above your head.  


I will not attend his memorial.  I cannot cry through it, in front of everyone.  I cry everyday as it is.  My day is made up mostly of very sad moments.  I can't add a memorial and also seeing all those people would add to my list of sadness right now.  Justin would understand.

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Toyoji had his first plane ride yesterday and he was a champ from what Kasey said.

He said this is his crazy plane face.  Kasey took him to Denver to see her father for his first plane experience.  How exciting!  Sure wish he could have made it to California.  But soon I will be closer to him, so I am happy.




Thoughts:


It's nice to have companionship and not be alone but you have to work at it.


Other News:


Jamie bought me a Shark Vac n Steam today.  I'm sooooo excited.

We have a beautiful kitchen now.  I will have to look for the "before" pictures but here's what it looks like now.

We are so proud!