Justin has passed away. I never even considered him dying.  I thought he was doing well with the chemo treatments and that he was progressing.  He was always reporting that he was doing well and he was upbeat and .......   I hope his suffering has stopped.  That there is a better place where worries and sickness aren't always on one's mind.  Where you can walk through the day and have nothing but smiles above your head.  


I will not attend his memorial.  I cannot cry through it, in front of everyone.  I cry everyday as it is.  My day is made up mostly of very sad moments.  I can't add a memorial and also seeing all those people would add to my list of sadness right now.  Justin would understand.

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Toyoji had his first plane ride yesterday and he was a champ from what Kasey said.

He said this is his crazy plane face.  Kasey took him to Denver to see her father for his first plane experience.  How exciting!  Sure wish he could have made it to California.  But soon I will be closer to him, so I am happy.




Thoughts:


It's nice to have companionship and not be alone but you have to work at it.


Other News:


Jamie bought me a Shark Vac n Steam today.  I'm sooooo excited.