there are women in my life that have come and gone and come back again....
i have a woman friend. i haven't seen her for a long long time and it has weighed on my heart. i sent her a face book message inviting her to dinner about three or four weeks ago and i never heard from her which is not like her at all. i sent another two days ago asking her if i said or did something to upset her and received a response. she said that she has a lot going on right now and that she's really depressed. i immediately sent her two messages, rambling on about how i have been secretly dealing with depression myself and that i missed her much. i only hope that i hear from her soon. she's a wise woman and i miss her opinion and her insight. i just miss her. she was one of the "three gardening girls" and i miss our conversations. i want to help her if i can. i think time together would help us just as time and conversations with Amy have helped me.
i have a woman friend. we have been friends since high school. i was drunk under a table at her wedding reception. i remember when she had her two children and i remember when she and her family moved to the mountains and rarely came down after that. we went on with our lives and the miles between us grew. now she's way up north near Sonora and i'm way down here. it's been at least ten years since we've corresponded and at least 15 since we last saw each other. her sweet daughter, Saige found me on face book and asked me to call. Debbie had mentioned my name and that she had been thinking about me. i called and left a message at her home number. i didn't realize that she was still living up there. after three long long weeks, she called. you don't need to reacquaint yourself with old friends and she sounded just as a remembered. yesterday i received a message from Saige telling me that she has talked her mother into joining her and her family on a Disneyland trip. wouldn't it be fun to surprise her. would we recognize each other?
also my friend Jose isn't responding to my text questions about his health. I've known him for ten years and worked with him at the UT. he had hernia surgery last November and he hasn't really told me how he's doing except that he's in pain. i believe something more is up but he doesn't want to share. the hardest part has been not pestering him. when he wants to talk, he'll call.
i carry so much in my heart and my head that sometimes they both hurt.
