I am thankful for:

For Jamie, when I asked if he was lonely this Christmas since we were all alone, he said "I have you here. How could I be lonely."

For a daughter that whatever I did wrong in or to her life, she made it all right.

For breathing in and out

and I talked to Don tonight.  I am so happy that he got to call me on Christmas.  I could hear how happy he was to hear my voice.

I am thankful that I can make him happy.

My wishes for the new year (I'll start my list now!):

That next Christmas, we will be near our daughter and family.  I want to be near Toyoji.  I want to be near Kasey.  I want to be near Mom.  At least on the same fuckin' coast.  thank you 

I want to lose weight and quit smoking,   Sheeeesh, both of those in one breath.  Already feel defeated.  Stop it, can't think like that.