second home in Morro Bay

friday night, february 25th

we're visiting Don this weekend and i've already told myself that this may be the last time we visit for awhile.  we just can't afford it.  so i am hoping that we can come back before the end of May.  that sounds so far away.  as always, the night before i see him, i'm anxious and worried and scared to see how he looks.  i'm know that he is excited to see us so i am happy for that.  i just hate that i am visiting and watching him die and we have to do that in prison.

 so sad

bad internet connection here at the hotel tonight.  hopefully tomorrow night will be better

magazine review

Marie Claire

March 2011 issue

SHOES!!!!!!

go there for details:  Lavin shoes

crochet, khaki, organic and lace seem to be the up-coming trend.  reminds me of another era i.e. Benetton

JEANS news

now if i just had the money, i think i have found the perfect jean in James Jeans.  http://www.jamesjeans.us/

Ashley writes a column in Marie Claire called Big Girl in a Skinny World and she says:

Too  many big girls think designer denim is reserved for women with matchstick legs.  News Flash:  James Jeans, a fav of hotties like Cameron, Jessica Alba and KimK, carries up to size 24W (not that anyone but myself needs larger sizes).   What's more, all their sizes come equipped with what I call a "muffin-top buster" - a contoured waistband that is lower in front and higher in back.

TOO MANY ADVERTISEMENTS AND THINGS FALLING OUT OF THE MAGAZINE

speaking of magazines..... check this out

i am hoping for a nekkid superman.......

but i go on.......

Marie Claire bulletin:

The real-life Mr. and Mrs. Smith

"The Company We Keep" Robert Baer and Dayna Baer

A husband and wife true life spy story.

sounds good, huh?  review is pretty good and we already have a visual of what they look like.  who's your daddy?  lol

and the dumb shit award goes to:

really?  wtf?

click here to read more:  red bracelets if you're on the rag

Book Review:
a memoir titled "I Totally Meant To Do That" by Jane Borden.  Their review got my attention:  Country mouse meet city rat.  A self-professed Southern belle moves to Manhattan in the kooky memoir.


Music stuff:
Adelle
i've been listening to her new cd online at NPR Radio.  It's a great cd and i love all her songs.


the end


okay, i've made it through the magazine and  i think i'm going through withdrawals.  i am craving a pair of nude stacked 5 inch pumps.  i think it's because i haven't bought a pair of shoes in two years.  OMG!  really?  It's been two years.  not counting the cute boots Jme got me for Christmas after i sent him the link.  does that count as me buying a pair of shoes?  hmmmmmm me don't think so


no wonder i'm having head trips all of the freaking place.  okay, it's okay, deep breath, in, out,, in out  okay, i'm feeling better now.  that was close.

i have a woman friend.......

there are women in my life that have come and gone and come back again....

i have a woman friend.  i haven't seen her for a long long time and it has weighed on my heart.  i sent her a face book message inviting her to dinner about three or four weeks ago and i never heard from her which is not like her at all.  i sent another two days ago asking her if i said or did something to upset her and received a response.  she said that she has a lot going on right now and that she's really depressed.  i immediately sent her two messages, rambling on about how i have been secretly dealing with depression myself and that i missed her much.  i only hope that i hear from her soon.  she's a wise woman and i miss her opinion and her insight.  i just miss her.  she was one of the "three gardening girls" and i miss our conversations.  i want to help her if i can.  i think time together would help us just as time and conversations with Amy have helped me.

i have a woman friend.  we have been friends since high school.  i was drunk under a table at her wedding reception.  i remember when she had her two children and i remember when she and her family moved to the mountains and rarely came down after that.  we went on with our lives and the miles between us grew.  now she's way up north near Sonora and i'm way down here.  it's been at least ten years since we've corresponded and at least 15 since we last saw each other.  her sweet daughter, Saige found me on face book and asked me to call.  Debbie had mentioned my name and that she had been thinking about me.  i called and left a message at her home number.  i didn't realize that she was still living up there.  after three long long weeks, she called.  you don't need to reacquaint yourself with old friends and she sounded just as a remembered.  yesterday i received a message from Saige telling me that she has talked her mother into joining her and her family on a Disneyland trip.  wouldn't it be fun to surprise her.  would we recognize each other?

also my friend Jose isn't responding to my text questions about his health.  I've known him for ten years and worked with him at the UT.  he had hernia surgery last November and he hasn't really told me how he's doing except that he's in pain. i believe something more is up but he doesn't want to share.  the hardest part has been not pestering him.  when he wants to talk, he'll call.

i carry so much in my heart and my head that sometimes they both hurt.

stolen from Kandee

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i am blessed

i got to talk to Kasey on Saturday night on her way home from work, so that was after midnight, her time.

when i'm feeling my lowest she somehow knows and gives me what i need.  She makes me laugh and giggle and forget about stuff.

i am blessed because not only do i have her in my life,  i have another woman who could be my daughter in my life.

 Amy has brightened my life as much as Kasey has.  i can't live without either one of them.

the biscuit day!!!

Brian Chesney’s Grandmother’s Biscuit Recipe

February 2011

Recipe is a bit labor intensive but has gotten the “grandmother” seal of approval

Freeze two sticks of butter

4 cups all-purpose flour 
1 tablespoon salt 
1 tablespoon baking powder 
2 teaspoons baking soda 
2 sticks butter, frozen and shredded (potato/cheese grater works well)

1 1/2 to 2 cups buttermilk, plus additional for brushing

Preheat the oven to 375 degrees F.

Directions

Sift together the flour, salt, baking powder, and baking soda. Cut in the butter using your hands until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Make a well in the center and add 1 cup buttermilk. Using your hands, quickly fold the dry ingredients into the buttermilk until a sticky dough forms. You may need to add more buttermilk.

Turn the dough out onto a floured surface.

Gently fold the dough over itself to create layers (I do up to 20-25 layers).

Press the dough out to 1 1/2-inches thick and cut with a floured 3-inch biscuit cutter.

Lay the biscuits on an ungreased cookie sheet and brush the tops with buttermilk.

Freeze biscuits for 15-20 minutes. Putting the cut biscuits in the freezer for 20-30 minutes before baking makes them very fluffy-tender on the inside and flakey golden on the outside.

Bake for 20 to 25 minutes until risen and golden brown

It works and they are so yummy

Having them for dinner!

just biscuits

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p.s.  just finished Water for Elephants.  

i really liked it and have now started the latest Sookie Stackhouse book... love love love it

trying a new biscuit recipe tomorrow.

freeze and grate two sticks of butter... really?

chill dough before cutting and cooking

lots of work but i hope it works

wish me luck

Day Two of Rain, Makin' Meatloaf and Don Update

really really high southerly winds last night, whipping my poor plants and flowers all over the damn place.

i did take them down for most of yesterday and all night.

they like the wetness but not the hard southern wind and hard rain.

Making a couple of meat loaves tonight.

one to eat and one to freeze

is there any other way?

Don called today

YEAH!!!!

he sounded great and said he's doing well

i think he holds back and doesn't tell me everything

his way of protecting me

we see him a week from today

DOUBLE YEAH!!!

he's scheduled for a CT scan either monday or tuesday

but won't have the results by the time we get there.  and he was soooooooo excited about my photo card sale!!!  so much joy in his voice.  so much joy in my heart.

change subject:

mom said something the other day that i can't stop thinking about.

every day when we talk, she asks if i've heard from Kas or received that phone message thingies (that's what she calls texting).

she asked, "how come Kasey doesn't call you very often?
if it was me, i'd bug you to call me."

i told Mom, that i don't bug Kas to call me and that's the difference.  

"She's not you, Mom."

and as much as i understand she has her own life, i do long for her to call every couple of days and text a hundred times more often than she does but i can't tell her that.  that's not how our relationship has ever been and i can't make her do for me what i do for Mom.  it's a different situation, i know that.


but still....

considering the yucky weather and a little headhurt, i feel pretty good today.  dark clouds over the debating devils in my head aren't so bad.  i've been able to keep them away through this blog and getting my pictures ready for anyone's purchase.  keeping busy helping Jme paint and do other chores, cleaning the house and now getting ready for our road trip to see Don.

it's a new day 2pm

g'morning world

it's supposed to be raining and it's sunny

i think i should have chosen "weather girl" as a profession

all you have to do is work out a lot and eat good

you don't have to worry about being RIGHT at your job, that's for sure

and they PAY you!

really?

wtf?

i have figured out that i use new words more frequently since Facebook!

LOL

WTF?

REALLY?

dislike

other news words to my vocabulary:

That's what she/he said

I'm on a boat
What's up with that?

pretty impressive huh?

all this without the need for a college education

ROFLMFAO

techy nerd i am not

well i have been fussing with this blog and it's feed burner and it just doesn't want to work for me.

i sent an email to my "g-friends" to see if they could subscribe, so i'll see what happens

bags bags and camera bags

http://www.epiphaniebags.com/#/shopbelle/

they make stylish camera bags?  how come i didn't know that?

rain rain rain and socks

first of maybe three days of yucky weather

sock weather

chicken soupy something weather

and too many frickin sirens

new find:

i think these are sooooo cute and these are the cheapest i found

when my hair gets longer, they are a MUST

dohairextensions

and they have the little tools and clippy things!

new website for SHOPPING!!!!


i mean, just look at this:

it's bamboo too!


click here:  storables


now what more can i say

click here to see a really cute necklace

i want this

baghaus.com

bored

$2.50 CASH

Jamie delivered more cards to Katie for me today and she sold ONE OF MY CARDS!!!!!

Wahoooooo

Yippeeeee

Buy

more

more

and

more please

heart day gerbers

heart day

Best Friend from HighSchool

received a call from Debbie Purvis Neves tonight.  I've been patiently waiting since I left my number on her record a couple months ago.  

she sounds EXACTLY as she did so long ago

and it warms my heart to hear her

Going to see Don

we're going sooner than we had expected.

we will see him on Sat and Sun, Feb 26th and Feb 27th

i only hope he doesn't get put into the hospital before then

do i really want to be a skinny bitch.....

random from SKINNY BITCH by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin

 **when menthol alcohol (a component of Aspartame,enters your body it turns into formaldehyde.  Formaldehyde is cancer causing.

**Aspartame is in a lot of sugar free foods; check your labels.

                               **organic wines that say "No Sulfites Added" or "NSA"

and

if you need coffee, give it up!!!!

decaffeinated green tea is anti-aging and anti-bacterial and are known for fighting cancer and relieving allergies.

no saturated fats

no hydrogenated oils

no calories

in other words

ALL THE JUNK FOOD you've ever liked in your whole entire LIFE!!!!

whenever you see the words "low-fat" or "fat-free", think of the words "chemical shit storm."

trade your bad junk food for good junk food:  go to health food store and eat theirs or buy raw ingrediants and make your own.  the only downfall with this, is that the shelf life is short.  so you're making it and eating it alot.

i'm only on chapter two 

next: CARBS

i'm in so much trouble.........

http://www.skinnybitch.net/

Update Don

while at the zoo and as we walked into the open area of the aviary, i got a surprise call from Don.   i so needed to hear his voice.  he said that the last couple days he's felt pretty good except he had some blood work done and it didn't look good.  his bilirubin enzyme level was high and high in his urine.  and his skin is yellow too.  they want him to go back to the hospital but he's refusing and we don't know how long he can keep saying no.  

we need to go see him in the next couple weeks and i'll call Kas and let her know that she might need to come out sooner instead of later.  i need to tell Mom.  i haven't told her about his previous calls.  she'll know when i tell her that we're going up in a couple weeks.  as soon as Jme makes the reservations, i'll tell you.  

my makeup must have in one form or another....

a black eye shadow, matte

use a small stiff brush

tap off excess

lift eye open and apply at lash root inside the eye

i use MAC 

and

Benefit eyeshadow "soft shoulder" for eyelids

bare essenctuals "warmth" powder for contouring around outer rim of face.  ie, V shape at temples and under jaw line, blend, blend, blend

was there something else?


any kind of blush


nude lip pencil


some kind of lip color (whatever suits my fancy that day or whatever i can grab first)

pickup putaway clean

daliah here tonight for dinner and a sleepover!  yeah!

so clean pickup putaway stuff

nice to have the house in order and all chores done

dare i say, gratifying?

menu:

rib eyes, fried potatoes and onions, spinach salad with walnuts, cranberries, gorgonzola with raspberry vinegar dressing, garlic bread and sweet tea

activities:

no fucking clue

tomorrow:

SD Zoo, walking, pictures, sitting, pictures, avoiding the pacing cats.

pictures to follow

stone cold , i mean cold stone ice cream for dessert!!!!!

Jme and Daliah had PBC milkshakes and

i had the "gotta love size" aka LARGE size "cookies dough cha want some" which is french vanilla ice cream, chocolate chips, chocolate and carmel sauce and a double order of cookie dough chunks.

omfgoodness

damn that inner dialog

my inner dialog starts battling with it's self long before

i realize i'm thinking.

spilling out of my inner mind,  they tumble forth,

competing for attention 

and sometimes coming out so tangled that

i have to go back and pick up a different thread that dangles unanswered but expects to be

headhurt

bad weather head hurt today.

tummy not doing well either.

i hate days like this.

and this i just thought was cute!