Can't seem to get in gear.

Unable to think clearly.

Day two in bed since coming home from visiting Don.

After visiting Don on the 10th, a 6-day migraine began.  Weather was rainy and dull and cloudy.  I hate weather that gives me a headhurt.  

Fast forward to Thursday, Oct 21st, when I received a letter from Don.  He'd been in the hospital since the 13th.  He waited to write me.  Thought he'd get better.  He said he thought his liver was shutting down.  He had severe stomach pains and he would catch himself rambling and have no idea what he was talking about.  He contacted the triage nurse and she scheduled a doctor's appt. the next day.  His blood pressure was 73/41 but he tried to convince the doctor from admitting him,  By being admitted, he loses his cell and his cellmate.  They box of your stuff and it sits there until you leave the hospital. 

I didn't sleep thursday night.   Friday morning I started calling the prison.  Nothing good came of that.  I left messages and make hotel reservations.  Then we were on the road.  

Arriving at the prison early Saturday morning, I was ready for a battle but fortunately his doctor left notes that he could have visitors.

We only stayed for two hours.  He was in alot of pain and couldn't sit still.  No real diagnosis and no real ideas.  The doctor stoopped the antibiotics and plan to do colon tests next week.

Our visit on Sunday was longer (5 hours) but he was very tired.  We talked and cried.  One of the most difficult for me was when he looked me in the eye and cried.  I will never forget that feeling.

I will begin calling the prison hospital later this week.  Not sure how I will be able to help from out here.

I am a tired girl.

The kitchen cabinet doors are painted but not hung.  (that's what she said)

The cabinet base are all done.

The color for the bathroom is done and test patch on the wall.

Endive by Martha Stewart.

Isn't that special?

We bought an air conditioner but it was too small.  Neither one of us are handy enough to figure out how to make it work so back to the store it went.

It's 96 outside today.  Wouldn't you know it.

My man found suitable hinge replacements and they should be up this afternoon or tomorrow  Then we can tackle the popcorn ceilings.  But first we are waiting for the granite peeps to call to set up an appointment to take measurements of the kitchen counter.

I CAN'T WAIT

Welll, finally the last major boxes have been taken to the storage room or dropped off at goodwill.  Very nice feeling; and I even had time to sort through my sewing box.   OMG

Tomorrow will definitely be either bathroom or painting trim or kitchen cabinets


.................. stay tuned.

Guess what?  Still tired.
Packing done so now we need to work on the kitchen and the painting.
I am so excited, I can't stand myself.

Tired.
Mind hurts.
Being bossy.
Mind hurts.
Tired.

Midnight
Slept four hours last night, so store room antics were a little slower on my part today.  Hoping that tonight will be better after a warm shower.

By the way, I love my new iPhone  It does SOOO much.

245am  - Can't sleep, not even drowsy, mind won't stop it's wandering through all things present, past and future.

Just take a deep breathe and exhale

Take a deep breathe and exhale

deep breathe and exhale

exhale

Ahhhhhh, Southern California weather is the best!  In the 90's today with NO humidity.  I repeat, NO HUMIDITY!!!  I must give the my plants a drink of water at sundown today.


I finally fell asleep last night in the midst of my mind tossing and turning about all the things going on   at present.  Toss and turn, toss and turn.  Will I ever sleep through the night again.


Today is "rearrange living room furniture day."  Hold me back, I can't wait.  No seriously, I can't wait!!


Most boxes are gone to either the storage room or off to goodwill.  Most of walk-in closet is done but still need to store away our suits, wedding dress, blah blah blah


Right now I am waiting for FEDex to deliver my iphone.  I missed them yesterday so I am hoping they come by early today.  I am having dinner and a movie night with Stephanie to see Eat Pray Love and I am very excited.


tah-tah for now

I am a daughter
I am a mom
I am a grandmother
I am a wife.

My never-ending need for patience in my life lately, is taking it's toll on my ability to be everything to everyone.

Mostly, myself

I just want to lay down and rest but not my body.  My mind needs a rest, a time-out, a "let's sit this one out" period so that everything can find it's rightful place in my mind again.

Helluva way to begin a blog.